[ it's something, at least -- jay jay -- a small glimpse of who they were when they were still able to look at each other with something other than disdain. does jay resent him for leaving? in some ways, yes, but jay's always known eobard to be selfish. he knew it was coming, eventually, knew he would never really be enough for eobard, not when he had lightning coursing through his veins, all the power of the world at his fingertips. jay taught him everything, opened his eyes to see the world in a new perspective, maybe opened his heart to love more than just himself -- but in the end, eobard just wanted more, and what else could jay offer but himself? ]
[ in the end, jay just wanted him. to stay, to be with him. but this story doesn't have a happy ending. maybe it's fate's way of getting back at them for messing with time -- no matter how fast they run or how many different times they meet, eobard will always want for himself and jay will always want for him. isn't that why he's here? because he couldn't just let eobard go, he had to run, to chase after him, to not let the best thing in his life slip through his fingers. but, for once, jay wasn't fast enough, wasn't fast enough to catch him, wasn't fast enough to see his undoing coming. he wishes he could blame eobard, because wouldn't that be easier than admitting he lost? to a speedster unlike anything he'd ever seen before, something so evil and yet familiar at the same time. this is zoom's fault, really -- but it's eobard who saved him, after everything, without even knowing it. ]
[ the speed force is a dangerous place for speedsters. jay would almost say it's like heaven. maybe, really, it's more like limbo, like a purgatory for speedsters who run too fast and can't control where they're going. jay never thought he'd actually see it, much less get stuck in it (thrown into it, more like). in the speed force time doesn't exist and yet all of time exists all at once -- it's a paradox of the highest caliber. it should be inescapable. how do you run to anything when everything and nothing are in a constant state of flux? he can't even quantify how long he was there -- years? decades? centuries? maybe it was only seconds, only minutes. time is relative, irrelevant. speed saved him, eobard saved him, in everything he did to make barry allen faster, in the beacon he became through every moment in time. eobard was the door without a key, a key he fashioned on his own. jay should commend him, should thank him, but how can he? this is never what he wanted eobard to become. ]
[ a lightning rod isn't supposed to hurt you. it's supposed to lead you home. ]
[ is he home? is eobard really the man he once knew? jay can feel it, some tiny thrum of energy between them, despite the cell, despite both of them trying their best to pretend like they don't care. jay wouldn't be here if he didn't, wishes he could leave. the others don't understand eobard like jay does -- jay isn't even sure he understands, but however dangerous eobard has become, he won't hurt jay. he can't. maybe jay's faith is his weakness, but he still believes in eobard. maybe that's enough, for now. ]
He doesn't know. [ privacy he knew he would need and jay doesn't have anywhere else to go but here, so here he is. the others have all gone to pursue other endeavors. ] How do you feel about me visiting? [ he steps closer to eobard's cell, arms folded across his chest. ] Surely, you haven't forgotten about us. [ it's meant to provoke him, to see how he'll react, testing the waters to see if his feet will get wet or if he'll just be electrocuted instead. but even jay, for all his trying, can't keep eobard at arm's length for too long, can't play mind games like eobard can. his face softens, yet still holds creases of disappointment and an unearthly longing. ] Did you ever think about me?
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[ in the end, jay just wanted him. to stay, to be with him. but this story doesn't have a happy ending. maybe it's fate's way of getting back at them for messing with time -- no matter how fast they run or how many different times they meet, eobard will always want for himself and jay will always want for him. isn't that why he's here? because he couldn't just let eobard go, he had to run, to chase after him, to not let the best thing in his life slip through his fingers. but, for once, jay wasn't fast enough, wasn't fast enough to catch him, wasn't fast enough to see his undoing coming. he wishes he could blame eobard, because wouldn't that be easier than admitting he lost? to a speedster unlike anything he'd ever seen before, something so evil and yet familiar at the same time. this is zoom's fault, really -- but it's eobard who saved him, after everything, without even knowing it. ]
[ the speed force is a dangerous place for speedsters. jay would almost say it's like heaven. maybe, really, it's more like limbo, like a purgatory for speedsters who run too fast and can't control where they're going. jay never thought he'd actually see it, much less get stuck in it (thrown into it, more like). in the speed force time doesn't exist and yet all of time exists all at once -- it's a paradox of the highest caliber. it should be inescapable. how do you run to anything when everything and nothing are in a constant state of flux? he can't even quantify how long he was there -- years? decades? centuries? maybe it was only seconds, only minutes. time is relative, irrelevant. speed saved him, eobard saved him, in everything he did to make barry allen faster, in the beacon he became through every moment in time. eobard was the door without a key, a key he fashioned on his own. jay should commend him, should thank him, but how can he? this is never what he wanted eobard to become. ]
[ a lightning rod isn't supposed to hurt you. it's supposed to lead you home. ]
[ is he home? is eobard really the man he once knew? jay can feel it, some tiny thrum of energy between them, despite the cell, despite both of them trying their best to pretend like they don't care. jay wouldn't be here if he didn't, wishes he could leave. the others don't understand eobard like jay does -- jay isn't even sure he understands, but however dangerous eobard has become, he won't hurt jay. he can't. maybe jay's faith is his weakness, but he still believes in eobard. maybe that's enough, for now. ]
He doesn't know. [ privacy he knew he would need and jay doesn't have anywhere else to go but here, so here he is. the others have all gone to pursue other endeavors. ] How do you feel about me visiting? [ he steps closer to eobard's cell, arms folded across his chest. ] Surely, you haven't forgotten about us. [ it's meant to provoke him, to see how he'll react, testing the waters to see if his feet will get wet or if he'll just be electrocuted instead. but even jay, for all his trying, can't keep eobard at arm's length for too long, can't play mind games like eobard can. his face softens, yet still holds creases of disappointment and an unearthly longing. ] Did you ever think about me?